urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eggshellartist But Now They Crunch Beneath Her Feet eggshellartist 2006-09-03T07:34:42Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eggshellartist:1340 2006-09-03T07:34:42Z 2006-09-03T07:34:42Z Okay, so.<br /><br /><br /><br />New journal, new life, new appreciation FOR that life.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />This whole free-loving lifestyle is very difficult, but vey worth it.<br /><br />Difficult for me because I'm always flipping out about things that are menial.<br /><br /><br /><br />Like this morning. I had a GREAT time. But I'm always so worried about what the aftermath will be that I forget to enjoy the moment to its fullest.<br /><br /><br />...but I did enjoy it ( ; OH LORD, did I enjoy it.<br /><br /><br />I had a bowling ball in my stomach, and a desert in my mouth.<br /><br />But it was a polished, pretty, purple bowling ball and a desert that could be quenched with a glass of water.<br /><br /><br /><br />I'm giddy just thinking about it.<br /><br />And even if nothing ever comes of it, at least I can say I made an attempt, right? I tried?<br /><br />Because what more can I really do? I live, I love, I learn. <br /><br />And again, even if nothing happens, I'll have the memory and the knowledge that I was not too afraid to take a risk I really wanted.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Casey and Augie and Lis and I made a trip around town today. Sam saw us. Freshmen e.e<br /><br />Oy vey. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eggshellartist:1256 2006-08-11T01:58:18Z 2006-08-11T01:58:18Z MrBlueskys67: i forgot to tell you<br />Kaydeekatz89: ?<br />MrBlueskys67: i learned how to do a gutteral screamo heavy metal voice<br />Kaydeekatz89: oh ha no way<br />MrBlueskys67: the internet is a good source for information<br />MrBlueskys67: you have to go as deep as you possibly can<br />MrBlueskys67: and like suck in air in your gut<br />MrBlueskys67: and then like exhale from the stomach as hard as you can and go as deep as you can<br />Kaydeekatz89: lol I just tried it and scared my brother half to death as he walked in<br />MrBlueskys67: hahahah<br />MrBlueskys67: please<br />MrBlueskys67: dont<br />MrBlueskys67: ever<br />MrBlueskys67: again<br />MrBlueskys67: :-D<br />MrBlueskys67: thinking of you trying<br />MrBlueskys67: is painful<br />MrBlueskys67: for me<br />Kaydeekatz89: Haha<br />MrBlueskys67: :-D<br />MrBlueskys67: ;-) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eggshellartist:894 2006-08-10T00:32:49Z 2006-08-10T02:01:54Z Where'd You Go-Fort Minor It usually rains on my worst days.<br /><br />Isn't that funny?<br /><br />It makes me believe in miracles. I think God is trying to tell me that I'm going to be okay. <br /><br />It's like: here, I'm giving you the worst pain you've ever suffered through, but I'm going to give you the rain to help you through it.<br /><br /><br />It's thundering and lightning and raining in intervals. I love the smell. I'm sitting here with Rane's sliding glass door open to the patio that faces Southeast, and I'm looking out over my favorite area of the mountains, and I can smell the rain and the greasewood. <br /><br />This is the happiest I've been in a while.<br /><br /><br />Where'd You Go is on repeat. I really love this song. Fort Minor. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eggshellartist:531 2006-08-09T23:55:59Z 2006-08-09T23:55:59Z Lips of an Angel-Hinder I needed a change. Away from that old journal.<br /><br /><br />Laugh at the name all you want!<br /><br />:P<br /><br /><br /><br />I wanted to apologize for being a headcase on Tuesday. I really appreciate you guys and thank you for making me feel better. I think sometimes I got so wrapped up in this last part of my life that I would forget to look up and see you all were there.<br /><br />That will never happen again.<br /><br />I love you guys.